My dad had a car accident on his way to my grandma’s burial…doctors said it was lethal but he miraculously survived the injury… After spending 3weeks in the hospital and going through 2 head surgeries, he died while being transferred to another hospital. You see I spoke to my mum everyday for 3weeks while my dad was in a coma and she never came home, she spent 3 weeks in the hospital and sleeping in the car or sometimes under the stairs because there wasn’t any room for her. She prayed endlessly and cried too. Yet after the news of his death she never stopped praying for him. Truth is the prayers became even stronger. Oh! How I admired her strength and resolve to soldier on. It gave my siblings and I the faith we needed to hold on too. But when no-one is looking she breaks down in bottomless tears. Days after the news I wrote this and called it “The Death Note”
The night was so cold that 29th day in April.
I had such a horrible dream
I watched your face fade into the night
Almost like you were erased from my earth
I woke up with fear’s grip around my heart
I couldn’t breathe.
There is a pain that is carved deep within
There is a grieve that is unspoken
But how do i grieve daddy?
How do i bring myself to understand this loss? how do i accept it? How do i find strength? Where do i find strength?
The mirror on the stand shows a reflection of you in me.
Blood of my blood, father of my bones, skin i am cut from.
As the warmth of my tears heat up skin and I am reminded that i am alive.
I hear mother’s voice grow louder
I scratch off the tears strayed on my cheek. Strength!!! I summon weakly.
I seat next to her sometimes, and I watch her mind walk down the abyss of the undead, her eyes sparkle from tears awaiting arrival
A pang of pain shot through my heart
I immediately recognize your reflection in her glass framed eyes
But you are not alone mother! You are not alone, We feel it too, we see him too
We miss him too.
I am so weak, my knees tremble
And i fall knees to the ground,
Steaming tears rushed down my eyes uncontrollably.
But i felt a powerful embrace, gripped me from behind and he said “I am your Lord and I will not forsake you”…